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I've been in a bad and quiet mood lately. I'm not at all in the mood to socialize and I just kind of want to disappear. Physically I'm also feeling gross and tired. Exhausted, even. Therefore I'm also not really going out at all. 

Yesterday CODE:

top...GHOSTOFHARLEM

shorts...SkinnyLip

utk...DAISO

boots...thrifted

Today CODE:

hair accessories...SHEIN

tie...?

bracelet...SHEIN

setup...LIZLISA

utk...DAISO

shoes...?

I decided to take advantage of this mood to finally switch back to my flip phone. It really shoes how addictive the smartphone can be that I used it just for my trip and it took me almost a whole month to stop using it again. I've tried to start to clean up my mess a little bit. Cleaned out my iCloud Photos, deactivating accounts, deleting apps. There's too much for someone who grew up online. 

I was feeling jealous because yesterday J went to get a new phone and he also got a new iPad on promotion, my iPad is old now and I was envious thinking his was nicer and shinier and newer. 

But after all, mine still works just fine, it's the same size as his, and there's no reason for me to get a new one. So instead of moping or spending money I don't have, I decided to just take care of mine to make it feel nicer. 

I cleaned it, took off the old scratched up paper feel screen protector, and got a new case. (for only $8.99!)

I also reset it so that it's completely empty, starting fresh. Just like new.

Now it's also matching to the rest of my desk.

And after all, everything is a tactical choice as well. No wallpaper, monochromatic app icons, NO SNS or messaging apps, focus mode always on, and a case with a cover. This is all towards making it as non-distracting and non-consuming as possible. It's a dedicated entertainment device only. 

I'm now going to be a little bit nasty...

While I'm preaching about "I don't NEED a new device I can be happy with what I have", I'm gonna be a little bit of a hypocrite. Because, my phone model comes in pink. I really wanted to get the handset in pink, because it would obviously match with my lifestyle and personality much better. 

The problem is, the price for specifically and only the pink color way of this phone has been artificially inflated by foreigners buying them up to resell them on EBay...

I couldn't afford the western prices, and I couldn't find one for sale from Japan, so I ended up buying it in black. I thought, I'll just be happy with this and I'll try to decorate it to make it cuter, but after using it for a year it really does bother me. I really want to find it in pink still. But it's still just as expensive, because they are all bought up. And I swear to god that the people buying the pink ones specifically NEVER seem to be actually using them. Every picture I've seen of someone showing it off on reddit has had a "no SIM" symbol and I swear they just take pics to flex and then shut it off and put it in a drawer. I get that it's because it's an 'aesthetic' thing, but as a person who wants to ACTUALLY use the phone as my daily driver phone, not for clout points, it's disappointing. 

Well, I'm just bitching but I'll keep waiting for one to pop up in Japan for a good price... that's all I can do.