2023/06/09

 

I forgot that I had wanted to blog again so I didn't do it lol.

All of us in Fortuna have simultaneously decided to retire from gal, and jirai. We're just all over it for different reasons. I will never say anything is permanent in my brain, because my brain is too unreliable and fickle, but for now its over.

I want to work on myself. for the longest time, I have basically dressed up as another person and put all of my energy into being the perfect representation of that person, instead of actually nurturing my own personality, which I don't even know.

I started with a pinterest account, of course. I found that it makes me so happy, naturally. whenever I look at it I feel at peace.

now I want to think about what I need to do to make my life more sincere and self focused. I have always been bad at doing something for the first time, and I don't like doing things incorrectly, or getting things wrong. Maybe that's why I always just tried to cookie-cutter my style instead of making my own?

I think part of this will require me to make my own clothes again, which is not something I want to do tbh. 

I'm not sharing my pinterest because you are not welcome to steal my own unique personal collection of influences, sorry. I highly recommend you do this same thing for yourself, it is much healthier.